We Are All Flawed Yet God is Here

She learned this from the villagers, who'd been generous enough to lend her their souls to paint. Not as perfect human beings but as flawed, struggling men and women. Filled with fear and uncertainty and in at least one case, martini's. Louise Penny - The Brutal Telling

Yes, we see the outside, but the heart of a person is what we need to be searching for and in the passage about Clara above Ms. Penny describes how Clara is able to capture the heart on canvas. All of us bear the flaws, scars, amputations and all the other baggage that have brought us to this very day, December 10, 2014. A flawed and struggling people who are filled with fear and uncertainty are a people who have forgotten they can trust the heart of God. That's the problem we get distracted by things maybe a snub, or a smirk, or an inflection in a comment that yields anger or unforgiveness. Then instead of pulling back and saying I can trust the heart of God we react through a wound and all hell breaks loose. The Ransomed Heart Ministry team sends a daily reading and the day I journaled this I read their post and they asked this question. Is God's heart good? And they concluded this way. Yes! The heart of the universe is still perfect love.

Then later that day I read a Lolo Jones post on Facebook that said, Fear is a prison. So these are the things I must hold onto in all battles. If I do not trust the heart of God, I will be filled with fear and imprisoned within my fear. When I am walking with confidence and trust in my Father's heart then the battles around me while inflicting pain and heartache are not fatal, because my Father's heart will never cause me harm and the battles are waged by someone or something else. 

Jacob's dream of the stairway reaching to heaven with angels ascending and descending with the Lord at the top changed his whole perspective about where he was standing at that moment. Well, there is a stairway leading from heaven to right here in my bedroom as I type this post and I can know God is here. He is here because his heart is perfect love and my flaws and struggles do not diminish his love for me. With all the uncertainty and fear swirling around me at this moment it looks a lot like Luz, but God is here and I just need to see him and trust his heart. Yes, I know the answer is not the one I wanted, not the one I prayed for, not the one I screamed for and and not the one I cried for but I will trust his heart because my day of joy is coming.